I will turn fifty on October 8th, and after months of reflection on my fifty years on this earth, the only word that sums it all up is blessed. According to Dictionary.com, blessed is defined as blissfully happy and divinely favored. I have not always felt divinely favored, but when I look back on my life with wise eyes, I know that is exactly what I have experienced.
When I was younger, I felt that God did not love me and only sought to punish me. I am the product of an extra-marital affair, so growing up in the church was bittersweet. No one in my church made me feel that way personally, but constantly hearing people talk about sin and how God hates sin caused a great deal of conflict for me. My mother told me that God loved, but subconsciously I believed that because I was a product of sin, I was sin. And that meant God hated me.
This subconscious belief caused me unnecessary pain, but it also made me a hard-working go-getter. Since I didn’t expect God to ever answer my prayers, I felt that I had work hard to get the things I wanted in life. I even worked hard to try to get God to love me. I attended church regularly, and gave my time, talent, and treasure to the church. This belief didn't begin to dissolve until after I had my son out-of-wedlock. I refused to believe that God didn’t love my beautiful baby boy. It took a couple of years after his birth before I came to know God as my loving father. And a few years ago, I got a new thought about religion, and was re-introduced to the God inside of me.
Today, when I say that I am blessed, it is because I know that I am not sin or even a sinner, no matter what well meaning Christians believe. I am a child of God who He created in His image and likeness. When God created me, He called me very good. I know that I am one with God, and that He lives in me. There is nothing that can separate me from God’s love or his presence. I am blessed because everything God is, I am too. My life is blessed because knowing God as my father puts me in line to inherent all of the good God has for me. I understand that as a child of an infinite God, I shall have no lack.
I am blessed to be healthy, surrounded by people who love me, and to have raised my son to be a kind man. I have two homes, a car to drive, good credit, and a creative mind full of money making ideas. However, I have come to realize that it is my acceptance that I am good, my expectation of good, and my steadfast belief that God is working everything together for my good is what truly makes my life blessed.
I am on a mission to help others experience this kind of Blessed Life that transcends a mere hashtag. Check out my new show, Blessed, on WYTV7 Christian Broadcasters Network, Inc. You can watch on Facebook every Wednesday at 9 p.m. (EST) at https://www.facebook.com/wytv7.CBN/ and listen on Thursdays after 12 noon (EST) at https://www.spreaker.com/show/blessed_5 or https://www.iheart.com/podcast/966-blessed-49216401/.